somethings in life will just not work out the way you want them to

so live with it.

the things that you'll do for someone, may not be the things that the someone will do for you. giving is never expecting in return. if something good comes your way, thank God for his grace that makes it happen.

sometimes its not anyone's fault. i used to think that when something goes wrong, its usually the fault of 2 parties, but now i'm thinking it can also be no one's fault. things just happen they way they will. its supposed to. its some form of lesson that is necessary. and these things make you appreciate the other aspects of life better.

from today onwards, i'll try my very best not to go out of my way for you. i'll try my best not to love you as much as i do. i'll try to do the things that i'd normally do, independent of you. i'll take your "yes" as a "no" and if it turns out to be a yes, i'll just be happy.

i'll lower my expectations, so that there'll be higher satisfaction. today was a good example. taking your "maybe i'll have dinner with you" for "i won't be having dinner with you". and when it turned out to be what i expected, i felt better.

so long jude. life is short. live it for yourself.

life is like a box of chocolates

you'll never know what you gonna get until you bite in.

is that life? is it some thing that you'll never be able to see the end of the road? the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? is it something that you just put blind hope in and hope for the best? that you'll just see what happens and take things as they come?

i'm never able to see the future. not at all. you don't give me any reason to see that glimmering light at the end of the tunnel. or maybe not tunnel. sometimes i think it'll all end somehow and it'll just be a dream that will be hard to erase.

its again the things that i'd do for you but you'd never do for me. its again how you don't know that you are treating me second best. its again how you never fail to disappoint me when you change things and events that are planned(no matter how small), to your whim and fancy.

sometimes it doesn't make any difference with or without you.

this is the blind hope, the blind faith i put in us. the hope that one day both of us will never be sad cuz of the other party. i think that's sad.

does the happy times overwrite the depressing one?

love is like ocd. and i don't like it. i used to have so much control, not anymore.

What lies ahead?

will you ever know what happens next? or will you ever know how it will all turn out? i want the best. but is it just pure hope? i ask myself that everyday. and i never got closer to any answer