somethings in life will just not work out the way you want them to

so live with it.

the things that you'll do for someone, may not be the things that the someone will do for you. giving is never expecting in return. if something good comes your way, thank God for his grace that makes it happen.

sometimes its not anyone's fault. i used to think that when something goes wrong, its usually the fault of 2 parties, but now i'm thinking it can also be no one's fault. things just happen they way they will. its supposed to. its some form of lesson that is necessary. and these things make you appreciate the other aspects of life better.

from today onwards, i'll try my very best not to go out of my way for you. i'll try my best not to love you as much as i do. i'll try to do the things that i'd normally do, independent of you. i'll take your "yes" as a "no" and if it turns out to be a yes, i'll just be happy.

i'll lower my expectations, so that there'll be higher satisfaction. today was a good example. taking your "maybe i'll have dinner with you" for "i won't be having dinner with you". and when it turned out to be what i expected, i felt better.

so long jude. life is short. live it for yourself.